There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed - Ernest Hemingway.
So yeah I'm gonna quit my study and grab new opportunities.
My father once told me that the decision made when I'm 15 until early 30s will affect my whole life. A simple yes or no answer to any opportunities or relationships will take me flying or sinking, for I am the designer of my own catastrophe.
Nevertheless I am happy that my parents support me. My mother simply pat my head and said there will be hard times for me but they will pass. It is very difficult letting go of my thesis, and embarrassing, really. I don't think I'm ready to face just anyone and tell them that "I quit" and laugh. Not yet. I need time. This is not something I can just brush off with a nod or smile or some gestures. Wow I never realized that I care about what people say, or scared of society...
Anyhow I've been thinking abut this for months actually. Did I make a wrong turn somewhere to arrive at this point? Is it a right thing to do? But life doesn't stop for anybody, and lashing about it won't make anything better. Dwelling in this any longer also won't help me progress.
I am saddened, frustrated and irritated with my own decision, but I have to stand on my own and take charge of my life. My future as of now sure starts slow. Still, I want to believe that there ought to be a future that I can choose. Right?
If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. Then quit. No use being a damn fool about it - W.C. Fields
It is good to have conviction and it is commendable to follow it through, but when it hinders you, isn't it good to try something new? - Sakata Gintoki
This is so much bitter than any heartbreak I've experienced. They said heartbreak, but my whole body and mind hurts. Okay gonna listen to Alana Grace now. And Leona Lewis
