Rock, Meet Bottom

When talking about someone hitting rock bottom, I often heard people said that the only way to go is up.  But really? That only applies if you hit the lowest LOW, you know, one when you truly have nothing to lose, not just some obstacle or weird challenge, or a bizarre plot twist that come in your way.  And how did you know that you hit rock bottom, THE rock bottom?

I guess you truly hit rock bottom when you can feel the humiliation, the despair, anger, frustration, sadness, and fear all at the same that it becomes so unbearable your whole body are hurting.  It hurts so bad you think like jumping from 13th floor but then dying won’t help with anything, in fact it’ll make things messier and much more miserable.  I don’t want to die ugly and all chop suey.

You arrive at a point where you didn’t even care you can’t cry anymore.  You lose everything; your confidence, hope, dreams, motive and beliefs.  You’ll question everything and realize that nothing is working.  But the good thing about this is you can let go, either willingly or not because you have nothing to hold on to. You can start anew.  Or hiding under your blanket in your room, cursing nonstop.

They said when life gives you lemon, make lemonade.  That is assuming that life also gives you sugar, which is impossible when you hit rock bottom.  Unless you’re not cynical and all positive-vibe-thinking-kinda-person, maybe you think life will offer you lemon and sugar with ice when in reality the very fabric of your life is torn apart and upside down.  The very best thing you can get out of lemon is lemon juice.  Or perhaps next time when life gives you lemons squeeze them in peoples’ eyes.