That Finicky Little B!~*uit

Two years ago, I attempted macaron. It turned out ugly. Today, I dared myself once again to make another. Well...

  
At least they taste good so... 

  

Road Not Taken

There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed - Ernest Hemingway.

So yeah I'm gonna quit my study and grab new opportunities.

My father once told me that the decision made when I'm 15 until early 30s will affect my whole life.  A simple yes or no answer to any opportunities or relationships will take me flying or sinking, for I am the designer of my own catastrophe.

Nevertheless I am happy that my parents support me.  My mother simply pat my head and said there will be hard times for me but they will pass.  It is very difficult letting go of my thesis, and embarrassing, really.  I don't think I'm ready to face just anyone and tell them that "I quit" and laugh.  Not yet.  I need time.  This is not something I can just brush off with a nod or smile or some gestures.  Wow I never realized that I care about what people say, or scared of society...

Anyhow I've been thinking abut this for months actually.  Did I make a wrong turn somewhere to arrive at this point?  Is it a right thing to do? But life doesn't stop for anybody, and lashing about it won't make anything better.  Dwelling in this any longer also won't help me progress.

I am saddened, frustrated and irritated with my own decision, but I have to stand on my own and take charge of my life.  My future as of now sure starts slow.  Still, I want to believe that there ought to be a future that I can choose.  Right?

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.  Then quit.  No use being a damn fool about it - W.C. Fields

It is good to have conviction and it is commendable to follow it through, but when it hinders you, isn't it good to try something new? - Sakata Gintoki

This is so much bitter than any heartbreak I've experienced.  They said heartbreak, but my whole body and mind hurts.  Okay gonna listen to Alana Grace now.  And Leona Lewis

Not-so-secret Relationship

You and I have a love so secret that not even you know about it – Jarod Kintz, Love quotes for the ages. Specifically ages 18-81.

Oh how I wish that is how my case and my so-called “crush”.  Then I can be spared of the embarrassment.

But that’s so not it.  All the hints dropping and flirting was actually obvious that his parents and sister know about it.  His mother even jokes about him flirting me, and don’t even get me started on the reaction of his sister.  Of course, my friends knew all about it.  I can’t stop talking about him then, and thank you God for blessing me with such best friends that put up with my nonsense crush.  It was clear that we had feelings for each other.  We both responded to each other.

But then suddenly he goes and proposed other girl.  It was so confusing and heartbreaking when I heard about his engagement.  Later that week, his sister came to see me with hugs and kisses, and starting to talk to me like normal, as if her brother wasn't engaged to be married.

After talking to my friends and upon self-reflect, I realized we just flirted with each other.  It was harmless, and maybe it was my fault for taking it the wrong way.  It's not as if we were exclusive or anything like that.  He's just being nice. Maybe.

Today, his sister came to see me again.  She handed me his wedding invitation.  It’s going to be a September wedding.  Unfortunately, my pride got the best of me so as I chuckled nervously, I told her that I may not be able to attend the wedding because I have a two-day conference, all the while gathering my strength, trying to hide my height of anger and frustration.  She responded by saying “Oh really? Too bad… Hey you know what, what about dinner with me and my friends tomorrow?”

I should have refused politely.  I should not have asked why.  She wants me to help out with the wedding, specifically with photo booth props and design a personalised wedding favours.  I just took a frontal snapping punch strike, full-life combo kick and died.

Complaints

Living is hard. Well now is not my finest moment because I may regret posting this but darn it I hate this red tape and administration issues. I mean come on people, we all got our own work. Lif is hard on me, too but do you see or hear me complaining about it to every single person I bump into? You're just asking for this. Its been 3 weeks but my registration is not yet settled. And blaming game, here we go.

“Free will may be an illusion. I often think that.”

“If that’s true, life is pretty dark.” - Haruki Murakami. “1Q84.”

Face Off SyFy

I am a big fan of SyFy's Face Off.  It's a reality show competition about movie magic, about the special-effect makeup world.  I have girl crush on the host, McKenzie Westmore (her father is the Emmy Award winner for his work on Star Trek.  Amazing, right?!) and I love Ve Neill.  Also, Mr Westmore is amazing on TV.  The show is genuine and intense, I am hooked ever since season 1!!!

Then I got notification from Twitter saying the McKenzie Westmore is now following me on Twitter!!!  Despite my cold and fever, I can't stop grinning for the whole day! My cousins came over to visit me and I can't stop talking about her, until my cousin said 'you sound terrible on the phone but now you looked happy.  I guess that's a good sign' and I was like yea, my girl crush is following on Twitter.  Not just any girl crush, but my ultimate girl crush for few years.  So yeah...

Must refrain from being creepy, now...

Piercings

I watched this Japanese anime where a girl was lying about her age.  She was 20+ but pretending to be a high school student. But because of her pierced ears, the other kids found out her real age.  Really? Piercing after high school?  I got my first piercing at 7. Yup. Seven. Is it that big of a deal? It's a normal thing in my family, because my grandma believe in gold. She gave me gold studded earrings with rubies. It was beautiful. Until I grow up to hate it. I'm bored with it and want a new earring when I was ten.

Well, wearing an earring in school is okay, too. Just pair of earrings. That's it. No more or less. But then the only piercing I'm allowed is just that. Not on my nose or belly or any other place. Just my ears. In fact, some of my friends got their piercing when they're 2 years old. So they won't remember the pain, and not a on other places than the one the parents want it to be.

I don't exactly remember the pain, either. It was just sharp tingling sensation. Which is why I don't understand why some parents ask their daughter to wait until a certain age to get piercing.  I mean, beauty is pain (though I don't like that phrase because I believe beauty means confident in yourself).   Because I got my piercing early, done by professionals, so no pain.  Also, and that's the only piercing I have. I did asked for another piercings on top of my ears during my rebellious teen years but my mom brushed me off by saying "I gave you piercings once, and that's it young lady".

In gold we trust, as I saw this quote on the internet. Remind me so much about my grandma

The Liebster Award

Last week I was nominated for the Liebster Award by the amazing https://chibigalinda.wordpress.com/, mommy to a super adorable son who loves Doctor Who, Pokemon, Makeup, and Video games.  It is a booster for me to keep blogging, and for that I’d like to thank her (｡◕‿◕｡) Do check her blog by clicking the link https://chibigalinda.wordpress.com/

The Official Rules of The Liebster Award

If you have been nominated for The Liebster Award AND YOU CHOOSE TO ACCEPT IT, write a blog post about the Liebster award in which you:

1. Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)

3. Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.

4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.

5. Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can always ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display a widget that lets the readers know this information!)

6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.

7. List these rules in your post. Once you have written and published it, you then have to:

8. Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it (they might not have ever heard of it!)

Or you could check it here (this is where I copy and paste all these regulations from): http://wordingwell.com/the-liebster-award-the-official-rules-my-first-blog-award-and-a-few-personal-secrets-revealed/

So here goes!  These were questions by https://chibigalinda.wordpress.com/

1. How did you come up with your blog name?

Raising Sumaiyah means I am still growing up.  Adulthood is.... overrated at best.

2. What is your guilty pleasure food?

When it comes to dessert, I am a sinner.  Whenever I have the urge to overindulge, I always go this local place called Eat Me Artisanal Dessert to have their Shibuya Honey Bunch and Nutella Chill Pill.  Sugary, buttery, creamy, chocolaty…

3. Where is your favourite place to spend time?

Well, I don’t really mind the where as much as I care about the who.  I am that kind of a person who enjoys good company.  But I do love long walks with my friends where we could spill our guts on anything and everything about anyone

4. Favourite TV show?

All time favourite would be Leverage and Criminal Minds, but I am currently hooked with  Person of Interest

5. What kind of music do you like?

I love Escala.  They play instrument like no one’s business.

6. What colour are your eyes?

Dark brown

7. What movie will you admit to watching way too many times?

Spirited Away.  I love anime and I absolutely love Hayao Miyazaki’s work

8. What inspires you to blog?

I love reading other people’s blog.  It’s like their own personal journal, and they invite me to peek inside their thoughts, knowledge, journey, opinions and experience.  Also if I die, my family and friends still find a piece of me, the proof of my existence (I think…)

9. What’s the one item you carry with you everywhere you go?

My phone and the book I’m currently reading

10. What is the weirdest habit you have?

I love to smell things, especially the book I'm about to read. And my hair.

11. What was the last book you read?

Still Alice by Lisa Genova

11 random facts about me:

• Complete chocoholic 


• My pet fish is called ‘Mini’, short for ‘Mini Monster’ because despite his size, he eats like me. He’s a red Betta splendens


• My all-time favourite anime are Detective Conan, YuYu Hakusho, and Fairy Tail


• I never had any surgery


• Contact lens freaks me out. 


• Thailand is the first foreign country I visited


• My father was an English teacher and my mother is an auditor


• I love Audrey Hepburn, especially Eliza Doolittle.  'How do you do?'


• I'm not a romantic person, but darn it I fell in love with Pablo Neruda’s poems


• My goal this year is to read 50 novels.  Or more if possible


• I am listening to Counting Stars – OneRepublic

Okay, TMI, TMI.  With that, I nominate these blogs:

https://yearandahalf.wordpress.com/

https://noruinin.wordpress.com/

https://justlittlemusings.wordpress.com/

https://thegreyeye.wordpress.com/

https://limami2.wordpress.com/

https://catwalkcuisine.wordpress.com/

https://sofiyawanmohdnor.wordpress.com/

https://untechsavvy.wordpress.com/

https://raimieisawriter.wordpress.com/

https://waitcameraeatsfirst.wordpress.com/

My questions for all you are:

1. When you were five what did you want to be?


2. What would constitute a perfect day for you?


3. What is the meaning behind your name?


4. Have you ever truly feared for your life?


5. What’s the most valuable thing you’ve wrecked?


6. If you could be best friends with any historical figure, who would it be?


7. What kind of fashion sense attracts you?


8. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?


9. Which film do you wish you were the main character in?


10. Who in your life makes you feel like you’re amazing?


11. If you were the only person in the world with superpowers, would you feel lonely?

*Thank you for reading such a long post about some weird strangers who has nothing to do with you ;)